Detachable~

I was stunted (even up to today) that I actually did what I have long to do. The fundamental of me is I am easily touched by others in a sense that I will forever help people who are in need despite who or what they are. I suppose God is great. There is this one old Malay proverb that says one mustn't do too much of good deeds. I wasn't really think how much good deeds should I do. I mean, when you are being really truthful in helping someone, you wouldn't want to think all that. On a very recent event, I have lost a friend and a family. Sounds like they have met into an accident or something, but yes, they are already 'dead' to me. For so long I did not realize that living with this family has given them such bad impression. My friends used to advise to me that the so called family is not my real family and therefore there will be one day that I will be in a big fight with them. I do not want to talk about what exactly happen last few days because it was too bitter to talk about. For all I know, I now realize who I should value more. Starting last Thursday, I am on my own. No more string of attach to that family. No more generosity. I hope what I did was the right thing to do. Let it be the darkest and blackest memory and history in my life.